I just finished reading Proverbs 3:1-6.

The Word of God is my compass. Through him, I will get to my destination. He will see me through. I always try and do it on my own and I end up frustrated, overwhelmed, underwhelmed, angry, sad or just plain unfulfilled. So why do I insist on doing it on my own? Because it seems easier. There isn’t as much upfront work but there is guaranteed heartache. So today I make a change. Today, I lean on the Lord with all my heart and not on my own understanding. Today I start to do it His way.

Dear Lord,

Thank you for your Word tonight. Thank you for guiding me once again. I will not forget your teaching but keep your commands in my heart for they will prolong my life many years and bring me prosperity. I will not let love and faithfulness leave me- I will bind them around my neck like a necklace, I will write them on the tablet of my heart, to be carried with me always. In this way I can win favor and a good name in your sight and in the sight of others. They will see the love and faithfulness that I carry. This is what will draw them to You. I will trust in You with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding because my thoughts are limited. I cannot see the whole picture like You can. I don’t have the means to get myself out of messes that I create. In all my ways I will acknowledge and praise You and I know that you will make my paths straight. You will remove the obstacles in my way because I am following the path you have set for me. Thank you for listening me once again. Thank you for loving me even when I don’t show how much I love you back. Thank you for whispering these love words to me to remind me again of what I must do to live the life you have planned for me.

In Your name I pray,



This is an amazing God Story that was shared with me and I cannot type fast enough to share it all with you.

Background: Sunday, July 10, 2011 The Waterboyz for Jesus 200Man Choir sang at Family Faith Night at the Keys Stadium in Frederick, MD. They are an amazing group of warriors for Jesus and they always manage to bring people to their feet, dancing in the aisles, and praising the Lord (and my hubby is a part of this amazing group of men, of which I am SO proud)!Here is the God Story that was shared with me:

Before the 200MAN Waterboyz Worship choir sang today, Courtney had a dream. In her dream she saw God doing something magical – something supernatural with the sound. She sent Doug a text message telling him about her dream. Jeannie was ‘manning’ the Waterboyz table during the time the choir was singing. A man rushed up to the table and said, “I want to buy their CD!” Jeannie said, “They don’t have a CD but what I think you are really saying is ‘I want to sing with the Waterboyz!’.” He said, “you don’t understand. I pulled into Home Depot (about 1 mile or so away), got out of my car and heard you singing. I looked around and other people had gotten out of their cars and they were just standing there listening. I jumped into my car, rolled down the window and followed the music here to the stadium. As I drove past Costco there were people standing outside of the cars just listening. You don’t understand – you just brought Frederick to a stop! Please tell me how to get one of your CD’s.”

Many of us have been praying that we could declare to Frederick who Jesus is and how He is using the Waterboyz for Jesus to transform men into His image. We were all thinking only about the couple of thousand people who might be in the stands. But God had bigger plans! He magically – using reverb and His supernatural power – literally allowed us to speak to the city of Frederick. Our prayer is that God would produce a rich harvest out of this miracle!  Men – and I mean MIGHTY MEN thank you!  God was lifted up – His power was poured out – and we spoke into an entire community. A pretty good day!


SCRIPTURE: John 11:33, 35-36: When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come along with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in spirit and troubled… Jesus wept. Then the Jews said, “See how he loved him!”

OBSERVATION: Jesus’ heart breaks for what breaks ours. Jesus loved Lazarus without a doubt but I think the Jews got it wrong as to why he wept. I think Jesus wept because Mary wept. And even though he knew he could raise Lazarus up from the dead, it pained him to see her in such agony. He shed tears for Lazarus but I believe he wept for Mary.

APPLICATION: When Javin manages to get himself stuck somewhere or hurt in some way (which happens quite a bit considering he is pretty curious and adventurous), even though I know I can soothe him or get him unstuck…there is always a moment of sheer empathy, where I feel his pain. My stomach drops, my heart slows and tears well up in my eyes. It happens every time- even though I know I can fix it and it will be alright, it still happens. There is a moment where I weep for Javin, my heart breaks for him. It’s like I take on a bit of his pain to try and lessen his. I would take it all if I could. And this is what Jesus feels for me. Amazing. And he DID take it all. Even more amazing.


Lord, You took it all for me. You are next to me weeping when I weep. That amazes me. I am never alone, you are always with me and you weep alongside me. I should be the one weeping for you. You are the one who took on my sin and literally went to the grave and back, just for me. Are there enough words to say thank you? Allow my actions today to thank you and honor you, Lord. Break my heart for what breaks yours so that I can remain a faithful servant to you, Lord. In Your Name I pray, Amen.

People look at you and think you’re saints, but beneath the skin you’re total frauds. (Matthew 23:28 MSG)

Wow. This hits home. “Practice what you preach” comes to mind. There are still so many areas of my life where I need to change, set boundaries, or cut it out completely. To be a humble servant is my ultimate goal. To be washed new and have a new perspective. I love the Lord with my whole being but do I respect my whole being or do I abuse it? So many changes, so many changes…

Thank you Lord for leading me to this verse- I needed a wake-up call. I asked for one and you’ve provided it. Help me keep this on my heart to always check myself in my actions and words. Thank you for your mercy and grace, even though I take for granted your blessings. You love me still and I love you even more for it.
In Your Name,

Garden : One of my favorite songs by one of my favorite bands…

Today’s reflection is based on a Girlfriends in God email.

The LORD is my strength, my shield from every danger. I trust in him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy” (Psalm 28:7).

What things or people besides Jesus are you tempted to place your trust in during a crisis?

I go to my husband to cry, my co-workers to vent and my best friend for all of the above. I tune out the world with t.v. and escape life all together with books. I’m trying to be better about praying and leaning on the Lord when I feel burdened. I post prayers all around my cubicle since that’s where I spend most of my waking hours to try to harness my thoughts to be honoring to God. Starting this blog and journaling my thoughts is my way to try to keep focus on Him and the path He has for me. To think aloud.

What keeps you from fully trusting the words of Jesus?

Being bombarded with secular views. The “social norms”. I trust in the words of Jesus but sometimes it’s hard for me to read the words of Jesus and understand how it relates to me now, to my life, to my situations. The parables can sometimes be so confusing for me. I need to research and delve into the history to understand how his words can apply to me.

How would your life be different if you chose to place your trust in Jesus alone?

I would be free. “I am free to run…I am free to dance…I am free to live for him…I am free, I am free”. Through him my blindness will be lifted. Through him my muteness will be turned to singing. Through him I will no longer be dead. Through him my heart will praise. It is just so hard to think that I could be free. I have my “Hallelujah moments” when my heart is softened, my spirit is exhilarated, and I just KNOW that I am a child of God and too often those moments are so fleeting. So quickly, life swoops in and steals the glory and leaves me feeling empty once again. I have to be active in fighting Satan– this is when I need to put a stop to the destructive thoughts, have a new perspective on my situation at hand and know that Jesus is my comforter, my deliverer. Surely, His goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Thoughts and prayers

O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water. (Psalm 63:1)

God is my strength. He is my only God and MUST be my only god. I cannot allow other things to replace the rightful throne of my savior. I must constantly seek him and never put down my guard. In my soul, I feel a stirring that only He can satisfy. My entire being needs the Lord in this sinful world, I cannot do it alone. There is nothing for this world to offer me other than time to grow closer to El Shaddai (my favorite name for him). Without Him I cannot bear fruit or hear the music that He plays so softly just for me.

You are my God, and I will give you thanks; you are my God, and I will exalt you. (Psalm 118:28)

You are my God. You are my shepherd, you refresh my soul and anoint my head with oil. I will give you thanks, I will praise you. Let the songs I sing bring joy to you, let the words I say confess my love, let the notes I choose be your favorite tune…Father, let my heart be after you. You are my God. I honor You, I hold You in high esteem. You are the Way.


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